Re: Does submissive mean, sissy?

I’m not sure if being a supportive cuckold turns you into a sissy or it just brings it out of you. When I was young I always considered myself as manly. Having been an unwilling cuckold with cheating girlfriends, I don’t remember that it made me feel feminine knowing my girlfriend who I didn’t want to lose was always having sex with other guys. However, now that I’ve come to accept who I am as a cuckold and my wife and I living the lifestyle, I have seen changes in me that I never recognized before. 

Since taking on our roles in 2013 as a cuckold couple with times in chastity, I find myself thinking feminine thoughts or at least softer thoughts. I quit biting my nails so they look nice and manicured. I get manicures every now and then. Overall I am more meticulous of my grooming, though I never was a slob anyway. But what I do feel that is happening is a change in mentality of how I want my wife to see me. When I am in chastity especially, I have a need for my wife to see me less masculine as if I want her to think less of me so that she will think even more of her lover as a true bull. I find myself making comments to her about how small my penis is, or how I’m her house bitch. She has slowly come to taking on these terms and is making them a reality in our daily dialog. Having her acknowledge I have a small penis was difficult because she loves me and was so afraid it would hurt me. It took awhile to get her to understand that her recognition of my small penis actually makes me happy. The only reason I can think of why it makes me happy is because I want her to think less of me so she’ll think more of him.  Now it seems the more she acknowledges me as less manly, the more feminine she treats me. She said for me to be naked in an apron before she gets home from work. It wasn’t frilly or anything, in fact it is my cooking apron. She was pleased seeing me in it while I was ironing her uniforms.  She even said I look sexy as she rubbed my tush saying we should go to the costume store for a maids outfit. I don’t think she was serious but it made me have an erection. It does seem that being a cuckold can bring the feminine out that’s in us. All I can say is that I may feel less manly now, but I feel whole as a person.