Hotwife – most amazing woman in my life

During the process of divorce,I met a woman on cuckold-hotwife thematic site.She asked me would I enjoy to submit,wear chastity device and am I bisexual.
To satisfy her and talk into having sex with me I said”yes”.We met,she was amazing, but my performance was not great due to my sadness (divorce,etc)
On which she wanted to discuss all my problems and find solutions.Also,she was dumped by her boyfriend with whom she was in cuckold-hotwife relationship.
She wasn’t angry that I lied about my involvement in this lifestyle.Amazing and intelligent,she said that she was never faithful to anyone,and being hotwife is ideal for her.
We met again, this time hd excellent sex,and I went home to my country.But!She started to write to me,personal not sexually related things.
Eventually I invited her to spend New Year holidays together.And we talked all the time-she was most amazing woman I ever met.
Yet, as soon as I discovered that, she started to run away from me.Sudenly she was”unexpectedly”invited to Thailand by girlfriend(I was sure it’s a guy).
And she was on the site daily,as one can see the last enter of each user.
I went to her country,with some trouble convinced her to meet.Again we spent like 16h in conversation.Shw said that she wants something serious and I live far etc, to get married and give birth again (she has a grown up daughter,age 20(she is 37).
So I stopped writing to her.But she wrote to me!We met several times-no sex,and she didn’t want to discuss hotwife or anything,saying it is all nonsense.
Finally,I mad terrible error-I saw on the site photos of girl resembling her having sex with the guy,and told her she is such a slut and insulted her.
(Actually it happened not to be her at all,she sent me photo of her backhead which was distinctly different).
She asked me never to write to her again, and said that it’s myself who is interested in hotwife,andshe doesn’t have anything to do with it,the add was made by ex-boyfriend.
I managed to excuse myself,and she even agreed to come to a summer holiday to Sicily with me.Under condition that she has no obligations towards me.I was sure we will have sex/but no,we spent 10days on the seaside in the same room.Obviously I paid everything.Yet,strangely I was glad that she could sleep well,eat,swim, and feel well and I made it possible.
Later that automn – she disappeared,and I moved into her country.Some things didn’t work that well for me,so I had to return home.She was angry about it,saying that the real man would never give up.
She refused to come again for New Year with me.But she went somewhere…answering my messages.Obviously not alone.
I was pushing anyway.Finally we met shorty in March and she had desire to visit my country with her best friend (girl) for 1st of May holidays.
Yet I wasn’t able to send her the tickets.But in the last moment she bought them and they were comming.
Nevertheless in the airport itself she had a problem,and couldn’t fly.She was crying,but I said that her friend can fly to me and I will make sure she has pleasant time.
Unfortunately her friend got hot on me!Also she knew many things about myself and obviously red my messages.Finally I gave up some informations that she didn’t know.
She promissed me not to say to her friend.
After she flew back home I felt that my relationship with her frind go colder and colder.Finally three months latter,she asked me to never write again,as I failed to buy her an expensive swimming suit I promissed.
(I said I wish to give it to her personally on the seaside where we would travel together-and she wanted me to but it on e-magazine and she gets it).
She said that I betrayed her secret to her friend etc.(on which site we met).
Latter this automn I spent two months in her country.Sent her flowers and handwritten letter for birthday (no answer).
Then I waited in front of her home with flowers.Shw went from home, pretending not to recognize me,and into s car, kissing a guy who came to pick her up.
I wished her all the best by e-mail and I thought that’s it.
But then-I noticed that she re-opened her personal add on hotwife-cuckold dating site , add which was closed since early 2017.
Saying that she is searching for lovers,and hopefully cuckold husband who should say what is his monthly budget for having a hotwife like herself.
To me she only wrote repeated words about my treachery and asked not to contact her ever again…
But why she reactivated her add again?She has a guy I saw them.Is she unhappy?Was it all fantasy or she is true hotwife?
I am grateful for any answer…