Reply To: I Love Watching

I have found that sitting and watching my wife with another guy has an incredible affect on my penis and my mind. And for some reason, as I sit and watch, the feeling of being ignored provides a special kind a heightened excitement. But, feeling ignored also triggers a feeling of being humbled; a discrete feeling of humiliation. I see firsthand that I am just not adequate. I experience an extra hard erection as I am overtaken with paradoxical feelings. Watching forces me to realize that my wife has choices and that if I do not adjust, I will be felt behind. Watching shows me that her preference is for large; and, the claims made by my wife, earlier in our marriage and while dating, that size does not matter, just was not at all true. Watching shows me that she truly enjoys intimacy with others, including deep kissing, cuddling, bedroom talk and being kissed all over her body. Watching can tear me up inside and cause me to feel humiliation that is not discrete at all.