Reply To: Starting to first explore my sexual inferiority

I feel very inferior to each lover. And there have been several. All larger than me. This feeling of inferiority has become overwhelming and has caused me to experience what is known as “subspace”. While I feel no physical attraction for any lover had by my wife, as some have described above, I do feel totally envious of their endowment. I find that her lover’s large cock commands a special presence onto itself. And his large balls only add to this affect. I find myself wishing I had even half of what these guys have for their cock and balls. Truly I am so very envious of their package. I can see on her face, how attracted my wife is to their largeness. This act of nature produces a profound psychological affect on my wife, and upon me, as well. Along with the large cock and balls of each lover enjoyed by my wife, comes a man with confidence. I can easily see how large equipment creates a feeling of real confidence. And, this confidence allows her lover to be able to manage the special and most unusual behavior and emotions of a cuckold husband, while satisfying the wife and himself. But, the bull must also maintain an erection thru it all. This kind of male confidence, only adds to my feeling of envy. I can see how attracted my wife feels towards this kind of equipment and confidence. All this produces the overwhelming feeling, within myself, of inferiority; and, this places me in the altered reality, mentioned above, as subspace. With this feeling of subspace comes my submission. For certain, offering my wife to another man, and actually helping her make herself available to him, is a giant submissive act. My wife and her lover enjoy their sex together; they enjoy their lovemaking and intimacy; they become locked together in ecstasy; while I struggle with emotions of embarrassment, humiliation/being humbled; jealousy; inferiority; a small cock and balls; incredible sexualized excitement; and, a wife that needs a man better than I, just to feel sexually satisfied.