Experiment: Pt. 4

I don’t think I would have been able to fully understand or appreciate her nakedness, or love, unless we had engaged in this lifestyle. Yes, her and I did have connections when we had sex, but not like she deserved. Sex was great, yes. However, because of my lack of appreciation there was a limit as to how far our passion, emotional bond, and love making could go, and “getting off” seemed to be more the priority. Which in turn caused it to be empty.

With her bf though, it is completely different. He more intuitively and more naturally appreciates her love, her nakedness and her for who she. He doesn’t need cuckolding in order to appreciate those things, because that added portion of having sex with her doesn’t blind him, like it did for me. He has that ability to appreciate her just as much outside of sex, as he engaged in sex. And because of that, he gets to fully experience her in all that she truly is. Their mental, emotional and physical bond is much deeper and more natural. And because of all these things, when they engage in sex, it is love making – deep, pure, authentic and passionate love making – and not just sex.

I feel very blessed to have witnessed what I have so far in our journey— her deep emotional love for him, and their engaging of pure love making. It has been eye-opening and amazing. And it has only been short of a year. I look forward to the days, weeks, months and years to come. I truly hope to see her love for him blossom far more than it already has. And to be able to see and witness her glow with true radiant joy as her love and passion reaches its highest heights with him. I imagine that her love for him is boundless.

And even though they do have that unbounded emotional bond, he is still not someone who she would consider marrying. And he has even admitted that he is not the marrying, or husband type. And that’s where I come into play. I offer that stability and husband reliability. I am her friend and someone who she can turn to someone who is there for her, supports her, and accomplishes those mundane tasks that are found only in marital relationships. In a marriage, there are those stressors, and I think those stressors are what cause that emotional blockade between husband and wife sometimes. And when that happens, cuckolding is a great way to go around those barricades. The woman is able to have that complete fulfillment emotionally with another man. While still being able to have the fulfillment of a marriage.

There are men who are meant to be husband’s, but not meant to be lovers. And then there are men who are meant to be lovers but not husband’s. And then, there are men who can and do accomplish both. And the men who can accomplish both, or the men who have a normal marriage. But for those of us who do not have a normal marriage, our wives seek that emotional bond somewhere else.

The last 3 weeks, my fiancé has been spending longer weekend with her bf. It used to be that she would go to his house after work on Friday and stay until Late Saturday, or early Sunday. She is now staying until Monday, and then leaves for work from his place, and then comes back home after work. And if you have read any of my other posts, you know that her bf comes over on Monday’s and stays the night with her at our place. And I do love the time they are spending together, but I have recently learned that that may not be the best thing to continue practicing, in regard to her spending so much time away during the weekend with him. So, we all three will certainly have to talk more about it, on Monday.

Experiment: Pt. 1

Experiment: Pt. 2

Experiment: Pt. 3